Today was the best day I’ve had in over a week. Saw my psych today and I’m going on a new anti-depressant.
Weatherwise, it’s sunny, but it’s also very, very humid. Moist is a good word to describe today. It’s a word that everyone hates to describe something that feels miserable.
I did go on the Tweeter last night during the Packers game. I was also very impressed by the rookies who played.
I think my vertigo issues are ear issues. I will probably end up seeing a doctor, if for nothing else, I can’t find where they keep the Murine. (Murine is stuff that softens ear wax.) I haven’t had to use that stuff since I was a kid.
One of my FB friends posted about how it seems that we’re not happy unless we have something to complain about.
Now this is my opinion, but I agree and I believe that this is so because it’s easier to be negative than it is to be positive. I also believe that society expects nothing but perfection, and because we know, deep down, we’re not perfect, we have to find something to criticize because it makes us feel better about ourselves. I’ve had my own issues with Perfectionism. Besides it being paralyzing, it’s also very poisonous.
It’s easy to sit back and spout platitudes about not complaining. In reality, it’s really hard to not complain. Hard, but not impossible.
In order to attempt this, you have to be very mindful of the words that are coming out of your mouth. You have to be mindful of what you are thinking and mindful of that moment when those thoughts become actual words. You can only catch yourself when you start complaining if you are paying attention to what you are actually saying.
You really have to retrain your brain to focus on the positive. One way to do that is to write down at least one thing you are grateful for every day.
(And yes, I’ve been slacking on this.)
You don’t have to make it public. You can share it with the world if you wish. The point is to just do it.
Negativity breeds more negativity. And face it, there is a lot of negativity out there. Whether it’s on the news, on Facebook, or even in our own hearts…it’s there. The only way to get rid of negativity is by being positive.
Being positive is a choice. It also doesn’t mean that you’re ignoring serious things going on. Choosing to be positive means that you’re choosing to not allow the negative to consume you. When you can be positive, it’s easier to put the negative into perspective. When things are in perspective, they are easier to face and to handle.
As cliche as it sounds, happiness really is difficult.
One last thing: depression isn’t all gloom all the time. I have good days and I have not so good days. It’s tempting to not want to blog about the good days because nobody wants to hear about that. People tend to think of the bad days and the dark days when they think of depression. However, it’s bad for me to dwell in the negative. While it helps me to write about the bad days, it’s just as helpful for me to talk about the good days.
The song for today is one of my go-to songs when I’m feeling defiant and fierce. It’s Crumblin’ Down by John Cougar Mellencamp. The lyric you can bend me/you can break me/but you’d better stand clear… is the one that resonates with me the most, especially when I’m feeling like the ass-kicking, fierce woman I am.
I’m feeling especially like kicking ass today. 🙂