I haven’t posted in awhile. Busy with school. I’ve discovered that I like chemistry after all. I remember not liking it and not wanting to take it in high school because in junior high, we had to do A/B work if we wanted an A or a B in the class. I was so against this on principle, I wouldn’t do it and so I got C’s. I was against it because I felt that I should be graded on the basic class work and that my grade shouldn’t be based upon doing all this extra work and extra credit. Extra credit should be a choice.
Plus there was algebra, which I hated then and was not good at and, deep down, was afraid of and had convinced myself that I was no good at it. This was all because the teacher I had then was an asshole.
I conquered my math demons last year. While I had to take remedial algebra (for no credits) and then College Algebra, and I only got a C in College Algebra, I’m happy with it. I won the math battle.
Anyway, now for the meds saga. For background, see this post. Long story short, I kept taking the prozac. I saw my doctor this past Friday and told her what happened. I’m doing better than I was a month ago, and I know that some of it is because I started school and have more structure in my day. I’ve got my attention/focus issues sorted out and I went back on Vyvanse, which I haven’t taken in over a year. I was on that first, then switched to Concerta, which didn’t really do much for me. I wanted to get the old meds out of my system and then see how well I could manage my ADHD without meds. This was so I could get a base point. I am doing better managing some aspects of my attention and sticking to task, but I still need the meds for the other part I can’t manage.
One of the good side effects of this medication is weight loss. I have a confession to make. When I went off the ADHD meds, I gained at least 50 pounds. I’m flirting with weighing 200 lbs and I’m not liking this. It’s harder to find clothes that look nice and fit. I don’t like being winded. On the flip side, I do like the fact that my boobs are HUGE now. As much as I try and get up and move, I haven’t been able to lose the weight or maintain where I’m at. I know some of this is due to age.
I will probably lose a bunch of weight after I’m on the meds for a bit. I’m hoping that I don’t lose too much in the beginning because I bought a dress for my son’s wedding and it would suck if it were too big for me to wear. Best case scenario is that I won’t have to wear the spanx I bought to wear with it. I do have a back-up dress. I’m hoping I don’t need it. It’s a nice dress, but it’s black and I don’t want to wear a black dress to my son’s wedding. I genuinely like my future daughter-in-law and I do not want people to think I’m pulling some attention whoring stunt by wearing a black dress. Even so, if it comes to it, I’ll let her know what’s going on and why.
Right now, I swear, I could go run laps around the apartment complex and still not calm down.
I haven’t done a song of the day in awhile, so I’ll do one.
Today is opening day for the NFL and the Packers-Bears game is being nationally televised. The Packers are in Chicago, so when they score, we won’t be hearing any Bang on the Drum. Today’s song is Bang on the Drum. I plan on firing this up whenever Green Bay scores.