New Meds and other Sundries

I haven’t posted in awhile. Busy with school. I’ve discovered that I like chemistry after all. I remember not liking it and not wanting to take it in high school because in junior high, we had to do A/B work if we wanted an A or a B in the class. I was so against this on principle, I wouldn’t do it and so I got C’s. I was against it because I felt that I should be graded on the basic class work and that my grade shouldn’t be based upon doing all this extra work and extra credit. Extra credit should be a choice.

Plus there was algebra, which I hated then and was not good at and, deep down, was afraid of and had convinced myself that I was no good at it. This was all because the teacher I had then was an asshole.

I conquered my math demons last year. While I had to take remedial algebra (for no credits) and then College Algebra, and I only got a C in College Algebra, I’m happy with it. I won the math battle.


Anyway, now for the meds saga. For background, see this post.  Long story short, I kept taking the prozac. I saw my doctor this past Friday and told her what happened. I’m doing better  than I was a month ago, and I know that some of it is because I started school and have more structure in my day. I’ve got my attention/focus issues sorted out and I went back on Vyvanse, which I haven’t taken in over a year. I was on that first, then switched to Concerta, which didn’t really do much for me. I wanted to get the old meds out of my system and then see how well I could manage my ADHD without meds. This was so I could get a base point. I am doing better managing some aspects of my attention and sticking to task, but I still need the meds for the other part I can’t manage.

One of the good side effects of this medication is weight loss. I have a confession to make. When I went off the ADHD meds, I gained at least 50 pounds. I’m flirting with weighing 200 lbs and I’m not liking this. It’s harder to find clothes that look nice and fit. I don’t like being winded. On the flip side, I do like the fact that my boobs are HUGE now.  As much as I try and get up and move, I haven’t been able to lose the weight or maintain where I’m at. I know some of this is due to age.

I will probably lose a bunch of weight after I’m on the meds for a bit. I’m hoping that I don’t lose too much in the beginning because I bought a dress for my son’s wedding and it would suck if it were too big for me to wear. Best case scenario is that I won’t have to wear the spanx I bought to wear with it. I do have a back-up dress. I’m hoping I don’t need it. It’s a nice dress, but it’s black and I don’t want to wear a black dress to my son’s wedding. I genuinely like my future daughter-in-law and I do not want people to think I’m pulling some attention whoring stunt by wearing a black dress.  Even so, if it comes to it, I’ll let her know what’s going on and why.

Right now, I swear, I could go run laps around the apartment complex and still not calm down.

I haven’t done a song of the day in awhile, so I’ll do one.

Today is opening day for the NFL and the Packers-Bears game is being nationally televised.  The Packers are in Chicago, so when they score, we won’t be hearing any Bang on the Drum. Today’s song is Bang on the Drum. I plan on firing this up whenever Green Bay scores.



Anxiety Spoils All the Fun

This is a post where I basically bitch about how I find it annoying when other people overreact to something, because their overreacting is also an anxiety trigger for me. Consider this your trigger warning.

Yesterday, during a preseason football game, Packers WR Jordy Nelson went down with a knee injury. As I type this post, they have not yet confirmed all the speculation that he tore his ACL.  While I’ve been fortunate to have never had this type of injury, I have torn other ligaments and messed up an ankle more than once. Yes, it hurts. A lot. I’ve also broken bones. That hurts even worse. So I do not dismiss what happened to him or his injury as something to be taken lightly.

However, Jordy Nelson’s predicament has spawned a meme, complete with its own graphic. I can’t begin to tell you how many “Pray for Jordy” memes have shown up in my various social media feeds in the past 18 hours or so.

It’s annoying because it’s people overreacting simply because of who that person is.

Let’s get real for a moment. Jordy Nelson hurt his knee. He wasn’t knocked unconscious. They did not bring out a backboard nor did they carry him off the field on a stretcher. He’s not paralyzed from the neck down and won’t spend the rest of his days in a wheelchair.

He may have torn a ligament.

I hope that Jordy Nelson gets well soon and that things aren’t as bad as they could be.  Whatever happens, I know that Jordy is going to handle this situation a lot better than some people.

Other people overreacting is actually an anxiety trigger for me. I have an anxiety disorder.  Triggers aren’t good things.   I have no control over how other people react to things. I only have control over how I react to things. When the situation calls for it, I have to remove myself from the situation before things escalate.

Permit me to offer a bit of advice: If you’re seriously upset about this and wringing your hands and/or gnashing your teeth because of an event over which you have no control, it might be a good idea to step back and remove yourself from the situation for a bit. Focus on the positive. A few examples of the positives are:

  • The Packers’ season isn’t over. It hasn’t even begun yet.
  • The Packers are very deep at wide receiver, unlike other teams, who consistently tend to place the fate of their entire team on the shoulders of one player (I’m looking at you, Minnesota Vikings).
  • Someone will step up to fill the void.
  • The Packers made it to Super Bowl 45 with 16 players on IR, including more than one starter.

And yes, I know that some people who read this will get annoyed because they think I’m telling them how to act. Act how you want. I’m just telling you that how you’re currently acting is annoying to me and probably to other people, too.

I didn’t do a song yesterday, mainly because I was seriously crabby. Today is the first day of the fall semester. I think I’m still technically a freshman, but I have to check Web Advisor to see how many credit hours I actually have. I’m taking 13 credits this semester and it looks like the most intense class of what I have taken will be Chemistry/Chemistry Lab. My son is getting married in October. I’m already feeling the stress and it’s still August.

Today’s song is Get Nervous by Pat Benatar.




The Prodigal Son Returns

The prodigal son is coming home.

The Green Bay Packers, the Packers Hall of Fame and Brett Favre made a joint announcement on Monday that Favre, Quarterback for the Green & Gold from 1992 to 2008, will be inducted into the Packers Hall of Fame next year and there will be a ceremony at a game yet to be determined, where the Packers will retire Favre’s number.

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